Its official I made it to 38 yesterday! It was a great day. I spent it with my family and kids opening presents for early Christmas. They are going with their dad and his wife back to Chicago to see there nana and papa this year. My husband and I opened presents with them and went for a steak dinner. My 10 year old son LOVES steak, it was so cute to watch him stuff his face. Then we played a board game and eat ice cream. We all throughout enjoyed ourselves. I did feel quite drugged with brain fog by bed time.
I got a pint of my favorite ice cream on the way home from dinner. Culver's creamy chocolate. I just finished it tonight, the day after my birthday. I woke up super bloated, with pimples forming. Totally expected and happens whenever I eat sugar. Anyway I have been noticing again how much I hate thinking about food. Last week I made it 4 days without sugar. Only 4 days. I had major anxiety and detox symptoms and then after having a bit to much wine at a holiday party, I caved and eat some sweet treats they had. Then the next day I followed my cycle of giving in and eating more because I "already did" and it was almost my birthday. Today, the day after my birthday I am still eating it because "I had some ice cream left". I see how my thoughts do this to me but I keep giving it anyway.
So, whats my reason, whats my why for giving it up and healing this food addiction? I work in sales and my boss often asks us what our why is for making money. Well, I think finding and focusing on your reasons can help fire up motivation.
My why for not eating sugar this year is:
1. No more emotional ups and downs from sugar rushes and crashes, no more sugar monster
2. To help manage my depression
3. To feel in control of my health
4. To eat to live not live to eat
5. To no longer be so bloated I look 4 months pregnant
6. To protect myself from the many chronic illnesses refined sugar has been linked to
7. To stabilize my weight
8. To live with more energy and creativity (I feel like sugar dulls my brain and creativity)
9. To learn to feel my emotions instead of stuff them down with food
10. To overcome my addiction. I am a sugar addict. I need to overcome this. Addiction effects all areas of my life negatively.
I am going to start out with a ketosis type diet because in the past this diet has proven to work the best for me. If you don't know what this is, I will be eating a lot of healthy fats, proteins, and my carbs will come from vegetables and some fruit. At first I have horrible detox but within a few weeks I typically loose all my cravings for sugar. I feel full quicker and I feel more in control of eating healthful foods. When I eat a lot of carbs, I tend to crave more carbs and I end up eating sugar. I know I need something that works for me though, so I am going to allow two gluten free cheat meals (without refined sugar) every week.
Anyway, every week I will update. This is my goal anyway. I have tried to do this for the last 5 years. I have overcome so many health challenges. I have learned so much, but this addiction has got to stop. I hope knowing I am going to write about it will hold me accountable. My goal this year is to slay my sugar dragon once and for all this year!
Melissa is the Author of Healing Through the Pain How I overcame Interstitial Cystitis. She writes about health (physical, emotional and spiritual) from a vulnerable place, after overcoming Interstitial Cystitis and still battling emotional illness. She is passionate about helping women realize their ability to make changes and move forward from difficult situations in their lives.
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